the school on the paper.

NOTE: This is a super old post. Just found it in my drafts.

what do you do when you’re jealous? serious. i feel quite jealous now. don’t ask me why when i have had my fair share of ups. i just hate this whole system. youre only good if you do the cliche stuff. go the way everyone expects you to go. sometimes i wonder what life would be like if i did what everyone expected me to do.would i then have been accepted by my friends, teachers etc?yes.i am sure i would have.they would have deemed me as worthy and making the right choice.going the right way.maximising my potential.i just feel like crying to think i have done so much,they have done so much and now that i have not done one thing they wished i had,i go.i’m suddenly pushed out of the picture.no longer recognised.you suck you know that?it was all an act wasn’t it?just to get you to look good you used me.then i made a ‘mistake’ and you scrapped me.in the end its got nothing to with us.its just about the institution i tell you.come into my shoes and you’ll see the truth.nothing about it.just pride.they ain’t helping you.you gotta help yourself.so do it.just do it.don’t listen to them.you gotta push yourself for God .not for any other human being.even a place like that.they ain’t the real ones looking for the real thing for you.